I saw this (and other) interesting titles from you but haven't had enough time to catch up lately.
Finally came to say Happy NY and read this.
Sorry you're in the thick of it, R. It sucks. Eggs to be clear.
It's good to not give in to the fear. Never helps much, really. It'll pass. Everything does. I know it doesn't help much when you're in the thick of things. :( Sorry.
You're in my thoughts. We're before I read this and will be more now. So know you're not alone and don't be awkward about saying hello if you feel like a rant.
Awkward hugs for real though