But it is just distractions.

What breaks the chain for you?

In that second paragraph, there are lots of "needs" - that means it is all future based, right? Why not change your process and stop needing and instead be able to, "I am now working out how to stream..." and then have some integrity and make sure it is true, so you don't have to lie to people :D

I don't get the same buzz from creating content and entertaining.

The more we consume, the less we create. I believe that while some consumption helps the mind move, too much degrades and makes it numb. We are constantly caught in a stream of useless information. I switch out as much as I can. I don't even listen to the radio in the car, because of adverts. I live as advert-free as possible.

From what you are saying, it sounds that while it is easier not to create, it is far less satisfying for you. We each have decisions to make on the lives we live and maybe it is time to become serious about what kind of person you are, and what actions that kind of person makes.

But what do I know!

I definitely need a hard reset! Maybe it is time to eat a fistful of mushrooms and get my life back in order. Also, Fuck Fascism!

I wish I had done this earlier in life. I am still yet to experiment with hallucinogens.