The question you pose in your reflections is certainly a dilemma. I have my doubts (and will probably continue to have them until I die) about where the emphasis should lie, if indeed there should be any determination at all. Perhaps it is some what Hamletian. As the Spanish (or rather Basque) philosopher, novelist, and poet Miguel de Unamuno said, “we are sentimental animals,” and we cannot escape that. Of course, we are also action, not always driven by will. But is will our salvation (so to speak)? I have nothing but questions.
Best regards, @tarazkp. Thank you for your reflections.

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