I'm glad you're a human, and I'm glad you can unleash some humanistic stuff like this. I wish more people did it. Its far more interesting than who swears the most, or who is having a scandal with whom.
And who knows, we could have twenty minutes, not twenty years. The lesson to me, is to just cherish every moment, without trying to define its length like I did throughout university...
(I literally wrote a paper on "what is a moment" in hte context of artistic representation.
Yes exactly - I've hit a point where I know I could be dead any day. It's a knowledge that seeps into your very soul. It's not a bad thing.
That paper sounds interesting. Care to share or have you shared on chain?
All the moments are blessed really, even if you're down with illness. When you realize this I think you complain less. Or at least understand in your complaints that you're grateful too for breath and life.
I've shared a few chapters here and there on chain. Owing to the poor search functionality, you'll have to go to my website to read it :D
I have been playing with the idea of turning each chapter into a video essay. I might do that if I get bored enough over the coming days, but I have just so much I want to do, I could really do with a bit more focus.
I also went out last night to take some photos, so got to get through editing those, and next week I have a function to photograph, and I've got to look for jobs, and - keep the house clean, and do those comment analytics, and probably a bunch more stuff :P
I'm just piling so many expectations upon myself. Being unemployed is busy work
Honestly, I could fill my hours with things that don't earn me a cent. I don't even know how I used to work full time plus Saturday sport teaching senior English. I'll never do that again, partly because I psychologically can't, partly because fuck that shit.
That is exactly what I am doing. Not fucking that shit to get my swear ratio higher, but filling my hours with things that don't earn me cents. But hey, I have about 140 images to go through from last night (we were going to shoot on Thursday night, but the weather is going to be shit) and its stuff that is outside of my normal repertoire (literally taking photos in pitch black conditions - using static lights and dragged shutter speeds) and from what I've looked at so far, its a liberating, spooky set of images that I will INEVETIBLY share here, once I have appropriate permissions of all parties involved
That sounds like awesome fun!!! The freedom to pursue creativity is everything. This time is a blessing for you.
There was a link in the comment, I thought, but here is one of the chapters of my thesis: https://perdikis.art/on-the-pointlessness-of-funerary-sculptures-denied-eternity-memorials-and-monuments/
Edit: I also sent a PDF to your discord account, if you still do that thing
I really enjoyed reading it. I'm not on Discord anymore, btw - it was wasting my time.
I am fascinated by decay, as it is such a beautiful visual symbol of impermanence and forces us to consider how everything is held together by ego and conceit. Anything we think we can set in stone is a fools errand. I'm always fascinated by the images of plants overtaking buildings in post apocalyptic visions - nature consumes even what we believe is permanent. Lichen eats rock.
I think humanity spends a lot of time doing things that ward off death because it makes them feel empty and sad and pointless. But if you choose to see it as an honour and a joy to be transformed into the whole, everything changes. Your body turning into dust and being food for plants is just an incredibly amazing part of a huge, timeless cycle.
Thanks for sharing.
The only thing I use discord for (really) is talking to my friend on our Monday night gaming sessions, and to get HIVE alerts. All the servers are just there as a support mechanism for a few hive things, but I don't spend my days relentlessly chatting to people