just take the bright side Cem, if there is a chance of huge disaster in the future, I think it is safe to say you are the one who come out alive, since all the hardship has shaped you as the person you are today. it is just part of the journey, one day you might be happy to the life that you have gone through.
Things will be appreciate once its gone. : ) they might learn it later in life. :)
Welcome back to Java, wkwkwkwk
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