Firstly, I like your body build, such great height too.
It's good that you eventually beat those distracting and discouraging thoughts and did what you ought to have done.
Seeing how you learned about yourself and the patterns of your life means you are somewhat focused on what you ought to focus your mind on.
A little distraction and sadness slips in every now and then but you can always overcome that if your mind is focus on something much greater.
Have a nice day Josehany
I hope to be a friend if you don't mind, I'm new here.